I have a few different groups of friends. One group of incredibly close friends that I don’t see too often because schooling/higher education is first to hanging out. Another group of kids that I have known a long time, but have turned to more questionable and mind altering activities. A group of friends that have hanging out at higher priority to schooling/higher education. Various groups of friends based on regional locations… and etc, etc.
Anyway, two of my best friends (both from the first group I mentioned) wanted to talk to me about something. It turns out they were worried, angry, frustrated–the works–with me because in their minds…
I’ve changed a lot… and am growing further apart from them… and I’m hanging out with them less and have chosen, instead, to hang out with other folk that partake in illegal activities and do hard drugs… and are basically going nowhere further in their lives. They believe I am turning into this type of a person and are very worried about who I am becoming and the choices I am making and this new lifestyle I am taking on.
The funny thing is… that none of this is true. Well… I suppose I can understand how they might think we have grown apart a bit. But the honest truth is, I might have distanced myself recently from everyone that I know. I am trying to focus more on myself and what I must accomplish in order to have the future I desire… so I am working through the steps I need to take to better my life in the future.
So, in reality, I have not been living this glamorous lifestyle of sex, drugs, rock n’roll, etc. that they seem to be envisioning me having… I have been at home doing my studies, writing essays and papers, reading journals and texts, researching topics, creating and recording music, sketching and painting in my art book, capturing moments onto film (by photo and film lens)…
…Basically I missed my creative self that I had known a few years ago, and said hello to it again… which leaves little time for anything else outside of my school studies.
I explained this to them and they seemed a bit relieved… but we decided that once summer comes we can try to revitalize our once flourishing, exclusive, inseparable relationship.
I suppose I am just a bit taken aback at how they let these feelings evolve without actually discussing them with me in the first place… and how they managed to come up with this whole vision of me being something entirely apart from the truth…
All in all, at least it has been cleared up and taken care of.
