So, I suppose I could say life is good, things are going well. School’s going well, but my teachers could be a bit easier. You’d think a damn art and health class would be an easy grade, but these two (being a combined studies class–meaning they incorporate the subjects together and teach it together) think they have to make it all hard… because i’m part of a separate program of the college. So I guess the teachers think we’re like an elite type of student and have to make everything harder… it is veryyyyy… well I can’t say gay because I don’t want to offend gay people… and i can’t say retarded because I don’t want to offend retarded people… and I can’t say stupid because I don’t want to offend stupid people… well actually, who doesn’t.
Anyways, I really enjoy school :)
Yet, at least in my life… with every upside there’s a downside. And often, they are quite extreme. While my school and social life is quite the bliss, family life is not exactly near perfection… or even close.
In all actuality, I shouldn’t be saying things are going well at all. Maybe I just focus on school and social aspects of life, whereas my brother got robbed in Spain and my grandmother, although quite the hypochondriac, says she is dying and is presently at the E.R. Or maybe I am just incredibly miserable and try to boost my spirit by stating all the positives in my life first, then attending to the negatives. Honestly, I don’t know. I’m just me, typing away. Typing away because I don’t exactly have a person I can tell ALL of this to. I only have people I can tell certain segments too, turning my life into little short stories–each with different overarching themes, catered to the different individuals that are my audience. Is there ever that one person you can tell everything too? Even when I think that I have found that person, there’s always something I can’t tell them. I can’t tell them what they do wrong, or if I can, then I immediately have to state something that I do wrong as well… as if to keep everything level. Why do I do what I do? Why do we do what we do… why do you?
And there comes a point when I realize I should stop going over the same trail of thought over and over again…
EDIT: yikes, that post really took a strange turn…
3 Comments
Sunday February 11, 2007 at 2:07 pm
Mm.. we don’t know each other, but.. *hug*
Friday February 16, 2007 at 8:55 am
I stumbled upon your page and I thought I should leave a comment because it all speaks to me. Have a good week hun (:
Monday February 19, 2007 at 8:09 am
linked to your page through RBJ.
Nice page, thought I’d leave a comment. There will always be an up-side and down-side, you have to just know which to focus on. But from what I’ve read you have no problem with that. I’d like to believe that everyone has someone they can tell everything to, but would you really want that? Sometimes silence is golden.